the fact that when I go to view my journals, it has all this shit up about treatment for Marijuana addiction. Haha I don't think it's possible to get addicted to Marijuana.
Anyway, today was great. Now, I'm just enjoying myself. I had to take some pain-killers for these major migranes that I have been getting here lately, so I'll probably fall asleep sometime soon. It's cool. Tomorrow is Saturday, so it will be better than tonight, despite the fact that I have a huge headache, but hey, the pain-killers are working. I feel euphoric. It's a great feeling. I'm surprised I can type. Love you, lovelies. Goodnight.

Current Mood: indescribable
Current Music: Ben Kweller- Sha Sha

I had the most difficult time paying attention in school today. As I am typing right this moment, I am messing up on the keyboard. It's not that I'm upset. Actually, I'm quite the opposite. I've been giggly and silly all day long. I'm hoping it's not from Friday's night of Marijuana and acid. I remember looking at something, and crying because I was so scared. Literally, I had the worst trip that I had ever imagined. It was like, I would look at something, laugh, then get really scared. My eyes were still sort of red this morning when I was in French. I don't know if it was all in my mind, or what. It's weird. I'm still wired from it all, I'm sure. Just full of laughter. But I don't know what I'm laughing about. I don't know if I will be like this tomorrow or what. And now that I think about it, it's actually quite funny.

Current Mood: giggly

I found this picture and it made me think about alot of things.





The first time that I've cried in weeks.
The first time that I've been able to cry at all.
It's kind of sad how it just happens like that.
I've found that alcohol makes me euphoric for a bit.
Marijuana makes me happy for a god 15 minutes.
And the other shit has different effects on me.
And sometimes it's not good.
I just want to be sad and be happy on my own.
With no help.
Not that I'm not a happy person,
Because I usually am a VERY happy person at that.
It's just that I'm so lost here lately.
I don't know what to do.
I miss so many people, it's weird in a way.
I miss him.
I hope he misses me.
I really do.

i know that i've probably hurt a few of you people in the past few days and i am sorry.
we're all human and we make mistakes.
life is too short to hate on people and mistreat them.
really.

Current Location: my house
Current Mood: grateful
Current Music: Regina Spektor

if i could change myself for one day, i have absolutely no idea what i would change to be like. i was just sitting here thinking about it and i realized that i actually like the way that i am. i am fully content with life and myself. for once, i am 100 percent happy.

Tags: rename me, writer's block

I enjoy pointless shit. i mean, what happens when it's all over? i'm not even making sense right now and i honestly don't care. it's life. life doesn't make sense. mostly. but that's the fun in it, i guess. ha fun fun. and i enjoy rambling. again.. another pointless topic. fantastic!

Current Location: megans casa
Current Mood: strung out
Current Music: KOOKS!